Day 29: Healthy times ahead

Yesterday's new job experience was NOT as bad as I thought it would be. OF COURSE. Believe it or not there was a moment where I was overwhelmed and didn't feel like I could keep up doing the work I was asked to do because it got very busy and I just wasn't completely familiar with the work. So .... I asked for help and was honest. I got help, the job got done, nobody was angry with me, and that was that! Go figure.
I guess that is part of Step 1, admitting I needed help.

After reading the Just For Today this morning... I realized that all arrows were pointing to me. No matter what I do, I have to put this first. I am learning so much these past few days. I call my sponsor and believe it or not, as much as I don't like calling somebody everyday, she forces me to open my eyes and pay attention to me for a few minutes a day. So maybe this is what it is all about.

Two months ago if you told me I would LOVE sleeping in my own bed, cuddling up with a book, and having days and days go by where I don't really obsess or even talk to Mr. K.... I would tell you that I'd probably be dead or in an institution. But to break it down quite simply... I am doing so great. I am not obsessed with ANYTHING... because why should I do that? It is very very unhealthy.

I had plans today to meet a friend that were sorta up in the air. I didn't plan anything else all day not knowing when I would have to meet up, and I got a call saying it would have to be later than sooner. Normally I would be so upset that I didn't plan anything or that I didn't know what was going on. But the truth is that I had a nice relaxing day and it's not like we had squared off plans anyway.

I really don't miss my old way of thinking.


The only thing I am kind of upset about is the fact that I very obviously gained a little weight. At first I didn't understand.... but now I realized I am first only back to my original workout routine in the past 3 weeks.
I AM upset about it. And now I DO have to start eating right.
I noticed that i DONT drink enough water.
I noticed that i DONT eat any fruit.
I noticed that i DONT eat any vegetables.
No wonder I put on weight....

So.. maybe this getting healthy thing will be OK after all.
What is the big deal?