Learning how to let go of negative thoughts and realizing "Whatever will be will be" is a lot harder than I thought. However, this might be one of the most valuable lessons I have ever learned... but I think it might be more of a process.
I desperately needed to make some money so I decided to reach out to a Party Planning service and request to work for them at one of their Bar Mitzvah services. My role is going to be to use Photoshop to create customized skins for ipods, iphones, etc. I kept telling myself all day that I was not going to be good enough to do it. That the training I received was not enough to be able to handle things right away. I was starting to get really nervous because I almost convinced myself that I was going to mess it all up and it was going to be horrible. Then, I started planning a way to get out of doing this. I had NO IDEA that this was Negative Thinking.
I called my sponsor and she said that I am just going to try it and do the best I can and whatever will be, will be. But if I convince myself that I cant handle it, then I wont be able to. That whole thought process is really silly....Especially because I spent over a YEAR doing this exact job for another company and it is not new to me at all.
I am just going to do the best I can do, and not let myself freak out about it because in the big picture.... it is NOT my career, it is just a small challenge to be able to make some quick money. Obviously the company thought I WAS good enough to start me right away, why don't I think I am good enough.
My thought process is just all so silly.... this will be a flash in the pan.
It is NOT THAT BIG OF A DEAL.
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