Day 42: Things I am looking forward to

There is just too much going on in my life to begin to spill it out in one post. I really need to keep up with this blog more often. When you are clean there is a lot more time on your hands to do a lot more things.

Where to begin:

1. My Sister came home and admitted to me that she has been struggling with a drinking problem (great....)
2. My new friend Brian has reintroduced me to playing music which has been kicking up some serious past emotions for me. But it is said that everything happens for a reason.. I definitely need to mourn music.
   
3. Mr. K has been speaking to me much more now that he is in Brazil. I am not sure if he actually loves speaking to me as much as I do him, or if he is just calling me to get a taste of home. But I should stay positive.
   
4. My car has a plethora of issues that might end up putting me in debt... but its okay with me somehow.
   
5. I am have a hard time loving the whole "sponsor" thing. I don't like small talk and I am not sure what I am supposed to talk about. It is not the fault of the sponsor because it would be like this with anyone.
   

All and all ... I really have no desire to be using drugs but life is hard nowadays. I have 2 weeks left of OUTPATIENT. Funny how much I complained about it at the very beginning of this blog and now I am really upset that it is almost over. ...